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Saturday, 22 October 2011

Another note on internet friends

Today I just feel like I need to say something about the friends I've made over the past few months over the internet. Since I started using tumblr I have made some amazing friends. I started talking to people through tumblr and found some of the most amazing people, people who have quickly become some of my best friends. No, I haven't met any of them in person but they mean as much to be as my real life friends. I can't believe I've only known them a few months, it feels like I've known them forever and I can't imagine life without them now. I never want to know what life without them is.

I'm going to take this opportunity to say a bit about the people who have changed my life without ever meeting me face to face:
I don't know what I'd do without this girl, I really don't. She is one of the most beautiful, funniest, loveliest people I know. She's an amazing writer and I can't help but smile when I'm talking to her, we talk almost every day and I wouldn't have it any other way (hey that rhymes)! We're so similar it's unbelievable. If I'm down and she knows about it, she'll help me and, often, just talking to her cheers me up, I guess she's just one of those people. The amount of random, inside jokes we have is stupid. Usually, there are more texts in my phone from her than my "real life" friends and I wouldn't have it any other way. I fear for whoever is near when we finally meet each other. I love her to bits, she's perfect. I hope she never changes.

This girl is another one of the most beautiful, funniest people in the world. She's the only person I can fangirl about my weird obsessions with the StarKids friendships to, because she's the same. We're thilly and weird and crazy together. I've lost count of how many sing a longs we've had in each other's ask boxes, I love it! Her blog is flawless, she literally has the best things on there and her obsession with Lauren Lopez is amazing. When we meet we're going to re create so many things and roll on the floor and just be goof balls together, I can't wait!

My life's goal is to hug this girl. For two reasons: number one, I think she gives really good hugs and number two, she's amazing. She really is. A message from her always brightens up my day and we have really similar goals so that's cool! She's really caring and lovely and just an amazing person. Every now and again, she'll message me telling me something that makes my day or she'll just be silly and make me laugh. I want to meet her so badly and I'm sure it'll happen one day. I'm counting on it!

Those are just my three closest friends right now, I have quite a few more who I promise I'll dedicate some space to at some point but, for now, that's it. These three girls are some of my best friends. They're the ones I can tell anything to, the ones who will instantly cheer me up. I can't wait to meet them and hug them and be freaks with them, it will happen. I promise you.

I feel like I've written this blog, or a variation of this blog many times but this is the first time I'm writing it when I feel like I've actually been through what I'm talking about. The other times I've been speaking about experiences I've seen, people I don't really know. But now I can finally say that I have friends I know from the internet who I couldn't imagine life without. I love them as much as my friends I've known most of my life. They are my forever friends, we found each other through common interests and they have changed my life. For good.

Sunday, 2 October 2011

The Stars

This morning I was on my friend's tumblr and saw that she'd wrote this beautiful piece of writing. The funny thing is, a couple of nights ago I was feeling the same.

In case you were to lazy to read it, it's a post about the stars and stuff. On Friday night I went to a youth group. Our usual place to meet has been shut down so we had a BBQ and, luckily, it was exactly the right weather for it. It was warm and clear skied. Instead of spending the night being hyper and really sociable I ended up sitting with a group of friends, eating, talking and lying down looking at the stars. It was amazing. The weather was perfect. It was warm but not to warm once it was dark and the sky was completely cloudless. There was one person  there who I'd never really talked to and I spent most of the night either sitting talking to him or lying on the grass, looking up at the stars talking to him. I loved it.

I don't get to see the stars very often. I'm not out after dark a lot of the time and when I am I'm usually inside somewhere or it's to cloudy to see the stars. Whenever I do get a glimpse, though, I find it amazing. The nights sky really is amazing. All those little pricks of light up there, all those burning pieces of mass. What I find most amazing is the fact that those little holes of silver are so far away, so different from how they seem now. Apparently, we see the nights sky as it was in Shakespeare's time. That's mind blowing, isn't it? The sky we see doesn't really look like that now, it's from the past. It's forever changing. How long until people see what the stars are like now? What marker will they use for it?

Looking up at the stars gives you a real sense of how everything is so much bigger than you. The darkness, the little bits of light, they go on forever. We don't know what's out there, we know there's something but we don't know what and I don't think we'll ever know.

I just can't quite wrap my head around it and, like so many other things I can't put my feelings into words right. Just go read Shann's post. It sums up most of what I've been trying to say, as always, other people can put my thoughts into words better than I can.

One last thing I want to say is that, when I read my friend's post this morning I felt like it was just perfect. On Friday I was quietly thinking to myself how amazing the stars and the night's sky was, then the next night one of my closest friends right now was thinking more or less the same thing. Universal connections.

Saturday, 1 October 2011

It's October...

So it's suddenly October. I've been pathetic at blogging through September, I just wasn't motivated. I'm still not that motivated, I just need to blog. Maybe I blogged myself out in August, I just haven't been feeling like blogging recently. I tried, I just never had any motivation, nothing to share. My life's been pretty hectic right now, I've had college work and tumblr and that's about it for the past few weeks. I have such a boring life, I know. I just haven't had anything to blog about. As I've said before.

This is just kind of me checking in and making excuses again. Sorry, it's not much but it's a blog! I'll try to blog more and better this month but, for now, this is the best I have...