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Monday, 27 June 2011

Sorting sorting sorting...

Today I have been sorting out stuff. All day. Since both me and my mum aren't doing anything during the day at the moment so she has become obsessed with cleaning and sorting everything out and stuff. Today we were sorting out the downstairs study and my desk was kind of a mess. I wish I had before and after pictures but I'm not that clever so I didn't.

I found some old toys from cereal boxes which I found that I miss! Seriously, they should bring those back! They're so cool. I also found a lot of half finished diaries and books that I've started throughout the years and there is A LOT. Ever since I was little I have written little books and diaries but I don't think I've ever finished a full story. I know I have only finished one diary in my life and it was this tiny little thing that was very easy to finish.

I don't know why but I've always felt the need to document my life for myself. I just really want to be able to remember what happened when I was younger and I just kind of never want to let go of all the good times I've had. In the words of StarKid: I'm hoping that the good old days are something I will dream about at night.

As part of the sorting today I made myself a little memory box thing with all my half finished diaries and stories that I've done and programs and picture books I've made/collected from things. I feel like this box is something I'll just take round with me because I love memories and everything in there so much. I love pictures so so much, I just think that photographs can capture so much and just show a true emotion that is in a moment.

I also started an inspirational quote book today. As part of the sorting (again) I found a lovely little book that my cousin got from Thailand with beautiful hand made paper in it and I thought that, since it was a beautiful looking book I would fill it with beautiful things that people have said. This was also kind of inspired by Julia Albain, as a lot of things are at the moment.

So, again this was a completely all over the place blog but that's my mind!

Quote of the day: 
"It is impossible to live without failing at something unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not lived at all"
J.K. Rowling

Today was awesome because: I got stuff cleared out!

Sunday, 26 June 2011

To Kill A Mocking Bird (and some thoughts)

I'm going to start my book review thing today. Yesterday I was inspired to read more at read a chapter of TKAMB last night. I started reading this book because my friend read it for English Lit and everyone in their class loved it and really recommended it. At the moment though, I'm not too sure about it. I think it's probably because I've been reading it in tiny bits and haven't had much time to really get into it. So, as I said, I read a chapter of the book yesterday and I liked it. I like the way its told from a child's perspective and the narrative is interesting. I don't really have too much to say about it yet, I'm going to start writing down thoughts as I'm reading it as soon as possible. Basically, I'm not really into the book yet but it seems good so far.

I hope I'll get better at this reviewing thing, practice makes perfect I guess!

As I mentioned yesterday I was really really inspired by Julia Albain and the things I had read about her/of hers last night and that kind of carried into today. After reading her blog I decided that I definitely wanted to order her book because the way she wrote on her blog was just amazing, she has this amazing ability to write her thoughts down in a truly inspiring way. I don't know how she does it but it just made me want to experience a lot. I really don't have a clue what it is but just reading 2 of her blogs made me want to experience everything I can and be everything I want to be.

That whole paragraph probably sounds extremely sappy but I don't care.

Today I went to church as normal and was preparing for a lazy day on the computer not doing anything but then I got a call from one of my best friends asking if I would like to come out. Since it was ab amazingly hot day today and Julia's writing had inspired me to go for it, I agreed and we had a lot of fun! We ended up just sitting on a hill talking and laughing, two of the best pass times! Fumble and mumble bees were around and my friend got screamed because a dog appeared in front of her. Fun times

I think I'm going to start doing quotes or lyrics that just say a bit about what I'm feeling because sometimes that is the best way to show it so...
Lyrics of the day:
"Who can say if I've been changed for the better, but because I knew you I have been changed for good"
This just perfectly describes how I feel about my friends.

Today was awesome because: It felt like summer was here! (even if it may only have been for today)

Saturday, 25 June 2011

Uhm, so I had a social life?

So, the past few days (okay, only thursday and friday) I have been suprisingly busy having a social life and kind of loved it!

Thursday was one of my best friend's birthdays so we all went out for a meal and back to hers for a sleep over. It was great! We went to a chinese buffet where I resisted the urge to make a racist AVPM reference (I'm not racist it just popped into my head) and we saw a VERY top heavy man who was very funny. After that we walked round town for a bit because our bus was late. That consisted of Sally dancing in front of a security guard, me making a complete fool of myself talking to someone who wasn't talking to me but I thought so and playing tag. Yes, it was a 16th birthday party, yes we are 15/16, yes we're childish, yes we know how to have fun. I love my friends. So much.

After the meal we went back to Sally's and drank a bit, laughed a lot and were our silly selves. I have to say, seeing friends drunk is fun! I surprised myself with how mum-like I became though, my friend kept going to the loo and all I could think was that she needed to have something non alcoholic to drink because I know alcohol can make you dehydrated. So, we have come to the conclusion that I'm going to be the one looking out for everyone and be the designated driver because I'm like that. I kind of like that though. I like taking care of my friends so its all good. After some funny drunk slurrings and a lot of laughs we decided to watch AVPM for the friends who hadn't watched it. That failed as the 2 friends who hadn't seen it just talked through it. But it was fun non the less. That took us to 1am because its so long and then we somehow stayed up talking until 5am. The things we talked about were deep. Like, sillily deep. It was great though, I enjoy talking about that kind of thing!

I managed to get about 2 hours sleep that night because the room was boiling and it was light by the time we settled down to sleep and Sally's family were getting up as well. So that was fun. Then, Friday I was a bit of a zombie until I went to choices. Choices was great, we had a BBQ even though it was raining and sat inside just chilling, as we do. That was also fun and I really wasn't that tired by the end of the day. Well, I wasn't that  tired until I lay on my bed. Then I basically collapsed, I must have gone to sleep straight away for the first time in ages.

Unfortunately I had to be up at 7 this morning to go for my second prom dress fitting. They said it should be ready by Wednesday which is good because prom is on Thursday. We went into town today as well and we found my prom jewelry and nail polish that matches my dress. So I now have everything for prom, except the dress! Fun!

Today I was looking up StarKid stuff on the internet and I was looking up Julia Albain and discovered all about her book and everything. She just seems like she has one of the most beautiful minds in the world. I really want to read her book but I can't decide whether to download the file or order a paper copy of the book, I really don't know what to do. One of the reasons Julia inspires me is because she's normal sized. The same goes for Jaime as well, I love Lauren Lopez but admiring really thin people like her tends to make me really insecure. It sounds silly but that's what happens to me. The fact that Julia and Jaime aren't tiny kind of helps me to accept myself. I haven't read too much about Jaime but the way Julia seems to think and write inspires me to write more and try and just do more. So, I got quite inspired by her today. It was kind of random but I liked it.

I wish I was a lot more creative though. I wish I could act and sing. I wish I was talented enough to be a theatre kid but I've tried that and I'm no good at it so I'll just do other things instead, there are lots of non creative things I can do with my time!

This blog has been long and kind of all over the place but that's what it's for! Just like my mind I guess, I love it!

Today was awesome because: I picked raspberries outside feeling kind of inspired and it just felt kind of amazing, I don't know why but it did. It's the simple things.

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

I should post.

So, I've not been posting much for a few days. Mostly because I couldn't be bothered but also because I have nothing to say. I just don't have anything to blog about really, but I feel like I should blog, so I am...
Knowing me though, I'll probably find a lot to say in this blog, because my mind seems to explode like that sometimes.

So, I'm going to do a prom update because it's next week and I have quite a lot of news! Today I had my practice prom hair appointment and I'm happy with it! I have a picture that I'll post at the end of this paragraph, so I now know how my hair is going to be, good times. Also, today the prom dress shop called to say that my dress is ready! Yayayayayayayayyyy! I'm going in tomorrow to pick it up. I can't remember if I mentioned it or not, but a few weeks ago I had my fitting and all the alterations are done now! So, we're going to pick it up tomorrow some time, fun times! I can't believe that prom is a week on Thursday! That's like soon and stuff. I know. Mid = blown.
So, this is my prom hair...

Okay, prom, girlyness over now! Sorry, Dan if you're reading this, I'm sad you can't go to prom :(

Anyway, what else have I been up to recently? Not much really, I don't actually have to do anything so I'm not doing that much really. Mainly I've been on the laptop creeping on StarKids and what-not. StarKid has pretty much taken over my life right now. As of today I have 2 fanfictions partly written. I tried to carry on with an old one today but I just wasn't in the mood I guess, it just wasn't going well so I gave up because it wasn't going anywhere. I decided to try starting another one but that didn't go that well either. So I guessI wasn't in the fanfic writing mood today.

I have been seriously creeping on the StarKids recently, probably a bad passtime but it's far to enjoyable to give up! It's probably bad all round but I just kind of want to be them a lot and that doesn't help. So, yeah, I think I need to see my friends more!

Also, I'm kinda loving tumblr a lot right now, seriously it's awesome. Just sayin'

I have now run out of things to say. I had a today was awesome because but I forgot here's a different one!

Today was awesome because: I discovered this blog: which is probably one of the best things on the internet. Ever.
Today was ALSO awesome because: I did the washing up in my prom heels whilst blasting out music because I could (and my mum said that if I don't wear my heels everyday from now until prom she won't let me go to prom)

Saturday, 18 June 2011

The Starlight Walk

I had just written out a good blog and then blogger decided to mess itself up. Thanks for that. I'm going to try and re create it but it's going to be shorter, so sorry.

So, as you know (if you read yesterday's blog) I did the starlight walk yesterday/this morning. If you don't know what that is it's a midnight walk for ladies in my town to raise money for the local hospice, the one my dad was in. It is 6.5 miles (or 13 if you're crazy and want to go round twice) and starts at midnight. It was quite fun, a bit tiring but fun for the most part.

Towards the end I think I might have gone a bit crazy because I actually think I could have gone round a second time and done the whole 13 miles, I wouldn't have enjoyed it but I think I could have done it. Like I said, I'm crazy.

My muscles aren't thanking me this morning, my right leg objected a lot. So, that's fun this morning. But that's probably just me being a wimp, as normal! I surprisingly wasn't that tired and didn't actually go to sleep until about 5am, after watching a few (StarKid) videos on my iPod. I've not been very tired today actually, I'm just not hungry at meal times. Today has been a very lazy day. I am starting to get tired of these lazy days though, so I think I need to start on writing some fanfic/reading/being not as boring. That might happen next week!

Rambling ramblings of a teenager...

Today was awesome because: This morning my blog had had 144 views this month and my Starlight walk number was 144. Made me smile :)

Friday, 17 June 2011


Don't ask about the title of this blog. I don't know. I had nothing else to call it so there you go!

I haven't blogged in a couple of days, mainly because I have bee on tumblr a lot (sorry). I got tumblr a while ago and liked it but moved to here because I prefered this kind of blog. But then I went on tumblr and saw the AMAZING StarKid stuff on there. As you almost definitely know, I am completely and utterly obsessed with StarKid. I saw some of these great StarzKid blogs and thought I'd have a look. Now I'm obsessed. There is so much amazing stuff on there. There are SO many StarKid blogs, with SO much good stuff on there. That is the reason my blog it titled I reblog a lot, because I reblog A LOT of stuff. I also put screen shots from my iPod up there. But I won't be abandoning this blog. For me, tumblr is about amazing pictures and gifs and blogspot is about good writing and recording my life. So I am obsessed with tumblr but promise to stay on here!
My tumblr is...
because that is what it is...

These past few days I haven't done anything and I'm loving it! I had my last GCSE on Wednesday and the end of the exam was the. best. feeling. ever. I love not having to revise and haven't got to the bored stage yet, so it's all good! I have been entertained with fangirling over StarKid and am probably going to start writing some fanfic because I love reading Tup fanfic so much. I will post updates about it on here soon.

Tonight I am doing the Starlight walk. This is a midnight walk that the hospice my dad was in that is either half a marathon (I think). So, to do this I need to still have energy to walk a lot at midnight which should be fun. Luckily, being off school has messed up my sleeping a bit so staying up shouldn't be too bad, the hard part will be not being a zombie. That is always hard. But hopefully it will be okay, I'll be with others so I might be okay. I don't know...

These past few days I have found myself wishing I could have got into the things I am into now a lot earlier. I wish I could be a PotterHead now. I've read the books but not seen all the movies and can't really remember much of the books. That is why I plan to read them this summer, after that I want to watch the films. I think I'm going to do that with my friends as some of them are PotterHeads. I wish I had found StarKid a lot earlier because then I may have become closer to more people earlier. I don't know, I just wish I could have been cooler earlier I guess. Oh well, maybe it's better that I found out now, now I have interesting things to do over the summer!

In these past few days I have sent off 2 things that will be given to StarKid. That's amazing. It means that TeamStarKid will know I exist. That's just wow. I really hope we get to see a response to them! I think both of the things I've contributed to are going to be totally awesome (sorry, I couldn't resist). They are both things that are going to be given/sent to the StarKid crew with a lot of fans' opinions/things they want to say to StarKid. So, I think these things are great :D

Ah, this has been an all over the place blog! Sorry!

Tuesday, 14 June 2011

Reading Blog/A doubley awesome day

So, I briefly mentioned before about my reading plans in a blog before but I'm just going to go into more detail today because I feel like it, as normal. As I mentioned before (I think), I plan to have a summer of reading and I was going to make videos about them but then I decided I was going to blog about it instead.

Since I have about 2 months off this summer with no revision/homework I have decided that I am going to re read Harry Potter. Since making this decision I have added a few books to the collection. I'm going to write about all of the books I am going to read as I am reading. I guess it'll be live a series of book reviews, I don't know how good at it I'll be at it but I just want to try it out, to see how I am at it. I'll never know if I don't try, right?!

So, here are the books I am planning to read, in the order I am planning to read and write about them:

      • To Kill a Mocking Bird (I have already started this but I'm not very far into it)
      • Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone 
      • Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
      • Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban 
      • Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 
      • Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix 
      • Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
      •  Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
      • Looking for Alaska
I have already read all of the Harry Potters, just not since they came out and I haven't seen any of the movies so I should be re discovering the magic of Harry Potter quite soon. I figure I will have quite a lot of free time after tomorrow and should be starting on it soon!

All that is left is to tell you the VERY awesome things that have happened today...

Today was awesome because: I finished my revision for my GCSEs!!!! My last exam is tomorrow! Yay!

Todays was doubley awesome because: DENISE FREAKING DONOVAN REPLIED TO ONE OF MY TWEETS. Yup. That totally made my night. (Denise Donovan is in Starship)

Monday, 13 June 2011

My project

So, a while a go I mentioned this idea I have for a website for teenagers like me who have lost parents where they can just talk to others like themselves.If you didn't see the blog I talked about it in, here is a link for it...just click here I guess!

So, after I wrote this one of my good friends, Dan messaged me on facebook saying that he would help me with it and it looks like it actually might happen! We should be starting it after our exams are over, which should be soon! I do really want to make it though, it's something that I feel would have really helped me when I lost my dad to have someone who had been through it to talk to. So, I'm going to try and be that person for other people.

I just kind of wanted to mention it on here because I was wondering if there were any other people who would like to help us. I would love it to be a place where people could just talk, they wouldn't necessarily have to talk about heavy stuff, it would just be a place for people to talk to others similar to themselves. So, if you would like to help in any way just contact me on here/twitter etc.

Just a bit of an update on something I mentioned before.

Sunday, 12 June 2011

A Very StarKid Blog...for once.

Yes, I am obsessed. Very obsessed. My life has kind of become a mix of revision and StarKid and nothing much else. That's mainly why I haven't blogged much, because I haven't got much to say! These past few days (actually, more like nearly a week now, wow) I have just been revising and watching stuff on YouTube. I guess I have found a lot more ways to get involved with the StarKid community.
StarKid things I have discovered in the past few days:

    • The Bully Book (AWESOME)
    • The live chat they did with RedVines
    • The amazing StarKidness that exists on tumblr (WOW)
    • Starkid (mainly Taz and Up) fan fiction 
I think I talked a bit about The Bully Book on my last blog, I guess it hadn't come out yet and I was excited about it. Well, it came out and I read it in 2 days. It is kind of amazing. If you can you should check it out! For some reason its listed as a children's book but I disagree with that, I think it is good for all ages! Maybe that's just my opinion but, oh well! I literally finished The Bully Book on the morning of my maths exam on Friday. I got ready and sat in the living room reading for as long as I could leave it. It turns out that is the perfect amount of time to finish the book! 

On Thursday there was a live "fireside chat" with TeamStarKid. It was at 6:30pm their time but 00:30 UK time so I ended up downloading the UStream app on my iPod Touch and stayed up reading The Bully Book until it was time to watch it. Which I did, half asleep. Thankfully it was only half an hour long, I expected it to be a lot longer but I'm kind of glad it wasn't because I don't think I could have stayed up much longer, after I had managed to wake up at 4:30am that morning. Clever me. So, that was awesome! I have watched it a few more times on the YouTubes because the sound was out of sync. So, I was shattered from that for a while!

In the past few days I have found the amazing StarKid community on tumblr. Seriously, the stuff on there is amazing! There is a fuck yeah for literally every StarKid and the things posted on there are so great its unbelievable! Just, wow! Through one of these tumblrs I have found the amazingness that is fan fiction. I found the whole think on the fuckyeahtazandup tumblr. The fan fiction with Taz and Up is just amazing! They are probably one of the best couples in StarKid history. I don't care that Lauren and Joe say that Taz and Up have a platonic relationship, they will always be in love in my head! Sorry, but they will! 

This is basically just my rantings about StarKid. As you can tell now, I am completely OBSESSED with TeamStarKid. They just seem like these amazing people and I wish so much that I'd have found out about their supermegafoxyawesomehot-ness earlier. Only StarKid can make people fall in love with Voldemort, make people feel sorry for a dick and get people to love bugs. Seriously, if my ramblings about them don't make you check them out, I don't know what will!

I may have to shut up now, I have spouted enough rubbish for one night.

 I leave you with an awesome thing...
Today was awesome because: I discovered Tup fan fiction

Tuesday, 7 June 2011

My 102nd Blog

I just noticed that I missed my 100th blog! I'm quite gutted! I literally saw it go from 95th to 99th blog and planned to announce my 100th blog but, of course, I missed it! Thats just what happens to me! So, I'm just making a point that this is my 102nd blog!

So, I feel like I haven't blogged in ages so I feel like I should update you on my life. Not much has really happened since Friday but, you know, I'm going to tell you all the boring stuff! Saturday and Sunday were boring revision days, nothing to report there. Yesterday (Monday) was an okayish day, I had a maths exam at 1pm so me and a few friends went into school to revise for a bit before the exam.Well, we planned to revise, it didn't work out to well. So, instead of revision we walked up to the shop/chippy near school and hung round in our friend's old form room for a bit before heading to the exam. It was quite fun, just being with my friends. Today, I had a Physics exam at 1 again and didn't bother going in early, I just went in for the exam. Both the exams were okayish, they could have been worse! I kind of like going in for these exams because it gives me a way to see my friends and talk to them and stuff. I actually miss school because of the people. It was so weird on Monday, being in school but not having a set time to be in a set place all the time. It was weird but I guess I'll have to get used to it!

In other, StarKid, news: I'm obsessed! I literally haven't stopped watching StarKid stuff when I'm not revising! Plus, I have converted Chloe, one of my best friends, into a StarKid! I love converting people into StarKids, its the best! Wow, I overuse exclamation marks when talking about StarKid. Today is kind of a big day for StarKid today, they have a book coming out! The book is a bit of a mystery in itself and its coming out at 6pm cst, which is midnight here in the UK. Unfortunately, I'm unable to stay up tonight because I need to get up early to go into school for (actual) revision tomorrow. But I'm actually really excited about it! I know its an e book so I won't need to order anything! Ahhh, excitement is making me not make sense! Basically, i'm obsessed with StarKid, the Bully Book is coming out today and I'm re watching AVPM/AVPS in honor of the Bully Book coming out!

Today was awesome because: I literally saw water evaporating off the path while going for a walk with my mommy.

Friday, 3 June 2011

A day of awesome things

There is one summer plan I have not remembered to mention one of my geekiest, yet probably the one I am most excited about! I plan to re-read the Harry Potter books, for many reasons. I had planned to make YouTube videos about them, recording my reactions and stuff but now I think I would rather blog about them now. One of the main reasons I was going to do this was to make the YouTube videos about it and get involved with the HP community on YouTube. But now I feel like I would prefer to blog about it because I find that a lot easier. So, I may try to do that as part of BEDA for August. So, thats another thing happening in the summer! I just wanted to let you know about that, because I felt like it!

As you will soon see, a lot of awesome things happened today! I didn't realize it until I was looking back on it, but it's true! I wrote one, then remembered another one, then another, then another! So, here they all are...

Today was awesome because: I went for a meeting at the bank today (awesome in itself - I feel so grown up saying that!) and the man who was talking to us just looked like the type of guy in an advert. But a very specific advert. I think it's the Pepsi Max advert, it's the one where there are a bunch of guys who do silly things to get out of jobs they have to do just so they can drink Pepsi (I think). Yes, it is a very random advert/thing to notice about someone but this guy just looked like a guy from one of those adverts. It amused me the whole time we were there, so that is my awesome thing for the day!

Today was also awesome because: I found John Green's book in Waterstone's! I never even knew that his book (or books) were available in the UK. So, I bought one of his books! It looks quite good actually, I'm looking forward to reading it!

Bonus today was awesome because: I was a child again! Me and my mum went on a walk today (in training for the starlight walk) and on the way we found a "play priority area" so, naturally we played! I decided to go down the slide and then we played stepping stones and just basically had fun! It was great!

Today was awesome AGAIN because: It was hot! For once!

Thursday, 2 June 2011

My past 2 days.

I have had quite a good couple of days recently. I have seen my friends a lot and I absolutely love it! So, here is basically what I have been doing...

Yesterday I had a wonderful day with my friendlings out and about because we haven't had a chance to see each other/celebrate since leaving school. We planned to go see a film or something but when we arrived at the cinemas it was absolutely packed! So we scrapped that and walked up to Starbucks which was about 15 minutes away (I don't actually know, that was a complete guess) because, even though there is a costa coffee AT the cinemas, a few of our friends decided we HAD to go to Starbucks. I have weird friends, I think that's what makes me so weird! So we walked up there, got drinks/snacks and walked back. That took quite a lot of time and was very fun. On the way back we came across a random field that had long grass and kind of looked like it was straight out of a movie so we decided to sit there for a bit. That consisted of lying on each other, eating and (the 3 of us who know them) singing a long to AVPM songs. That was fun, although my hay fever made me pay for it last night/today. I think it was worth it! After some moaning about needing the toilet/hay fever starting to get bad we left the feild and walked to ASDA to relieve said needing of the toilet and buy some food. We did that and took our ben and jerry's mini pots to a random bit of grass and sat there and talked/played more AVPM. We also named a tree Kathryn Woods but thats something else...
After a while we saw one of our other friends who was meant to be meeting us but was with some other friends and so, after a considerable amount of yelling we got him to come and sit with us. That was fun, until the security guard came over and told us to go away. That resulted in some of us wanting to walk up to another field that was ages away and me saying no because I had to go soon. That was fun. So instead we walked somewhere for a bit, passed some swans and ducklings and ended up at a park near my house, at which I stayed until I had to go (well duh). So, that was a fun day. That probably doesn't sound to fun in writing but, believe me it was great! With my friends you don't really know what will happen and you can garrentee there will be some dirty jokes made because that's just us!

So, that was my fun day and today was actually okay. I went into school for physics revision because my teacher has been off a lot recently. That was actually okay, I prefer revision sessions SO much more than actual lessons, we always end up talking to the teacher about something completely unrelated to the subject which is fun. So, that was my day really, we had some laughs, learnt some stuff and it was fun to be with my friends, especially because I'm not really going to have that next year.

Those were my last couple of days!

In other, exciting news (well for me, probably not for you) my prom dress has come back and I'm going for a fitting for it on Saturday! Yay! It is actually 28 days until prom, not that I'm counting down to it or anything...

Today was awesome because: It was sunny!