BEDA Day 1: A bit of an introduction...

So, it's August! It's come around quick, yet slowly at the same time...even though that doesn't make much sense but, hey, that's me!

I haven't really updated here in a while because I just felt like I needed a bit of a break. I felt like I wasn't writing what I wanted to write in here and I just needed to stop for a bit. I still wrote, just in my private journal not on here. I don't know why, writing in this blog just wasn't helping, it was just confusing me more. Part of it might have been the fact that this is published for people to read and I want people to read it, it was just that I wasn't producing what I though was readable writing. If that makes any sense. So a wrote about 5 pages in my diary, taking me almost an hour but helping me unbelievably. So, that's what's been happening in those 5 days I didn't blog properly...I know 5 days isn't much for most bloggers but it seems like ages to me.

As you can probably tell I'm doing BEDA (blog every day in August). I don't know whether BEDA/VEDA is done as much in August as it is in April but, since I failed at it in April, I'm trying it out! I hope doing this will improve my writing. I've heard through a lot of people that the only way to improve your writing is to write so I'm taking their advice. I don't know how or when but I've really started to love writing and now it's something I'd like to explore further. Those are my reasons for doing this...

Thinking about it, today was a lot of firsts: the 1st of August; my first day volunteering; the first day of getting our bathroom redone and (of course) the first day of BEDA! I've mentioned volunteering before and it's something I was really nervcited about (a word I made up, a cross between nervous and excited) starting. My hopeful future job is to be a teacher in a special school so I'm volunteering with a local holiday play scheme for 4-19 year olds this summer to gain experience and make sure that this is really what I want to do. As I've mentioned, it was my first day today and I can't really say much more than that because of confidentiality stuff. I really enjoyed it though and I'm glad because I'm more sure of what I want to do but I may not think that way after four weeks of it so we'll see what happens!

As I mentioned above, it was the first day of us getting my bathroom re done today. In a way it's kind of weird for me because I have, literally, grown up in that bathroom. My parents got it done before I was born and it's more or less stayed the same throughout my life. The change table my parents used when I was a baby was still there and I think we might be putting it back, I'm not sure. Getting my bathroom redone is a bit like saying goodbye to a part of my childhood. Being involved in the Harry Potter fandom on tumblr has lead me to think more about the ending of my/our childhoods as a lot of people say the end of their childhood was the end of the Harry Potter film. It just got me thinking, we're all growing up and it's inevitable that we will have things that seem like they end our childhood because they were such a big part of our lives. When I was a child I didn't like watching movies and things like that so for me it's places and people who make up my childhood, places like my house and my primary school.

First day of BEDA: done! This wasn't really a blog about a lot, it was just some of my thoughts about stuff.

Today was awesome because: I walked home from volunteering.