On my own

This journey I've decided to go on seems to be one that can only be achieved through spending time on my own. I've never really been good at this before, despite being an only child I was never alone, I always had people around me, even if it was only my parents.

But this year, especially these past couple of weeks, I've had to learn how to be on my own more and how to be happy with that. It's a process, but I think it's a process that's good for me. Learning how to spend my frees in the library, working alone so that I can have some me time and am able to relax it home a bit more is good for me. I know there'll be a lot more of this needing to happen in the future and so learning to do it now is good.

This is also good for my learning how to love myself like a friend mission that I'm on right now. It's a way of forcing myself to spend time with myself when I'd usually previously be spending it with a friend. It's helping me become my own friend, helping me see myself that way. Being forced to spend time on my own isn't really making me feel lonely at the moment, it's helping me.

Don't get me wrong, I love my friends and the people in my life. I love spending time with them when I can and I wish I saw them more. I just don't feel as lonely when it's not possible to spend time with them. I'm not to the point where I'm completely confident in spending time alone, but I'm on my way.