Sorting sorting sorting...

Today I have been sorting out stuff. All day. Since both me and my mum aren't doing anything during the day at the moment so she has become obsessed with cleaning and sorting everything out and stuff. Today we were sorting out the downstairs study and my desk was kind of a mess. I wish I had before and after pictures but I'm not that clever so I didn't.

I found some old toys from cereal boxes which I found that I miss! Seriously, they should bring those back! They're so cool. I also found a lot of half finished diaries and books that I've started throughout the years and there is A LOT. Ever since I was little I have written little books and diaries but I don't think I've ever finished a full story. I know I have only finished one diary in my life and it was this tiny little thing that was very easy to finish.

I don't know why but I've always felt the need to document my life for myself. I just really want to be able to remember what happened when I was younger and I just kind of never want to let go of all the good times I've had. In the words of StarKid: I'm hoping that the good old days are something I will dream about at night.

As part of the sorting today I made myself a little memory box thing with all my half finished diaries and stories that I've done and programs and picture books I've made/collected from things. I feel like this box is something I'll just take round with me because I love memories and everything in there so much. I love pictures so so much, I just think that photographs can capture so much and just show a true emotion that is in a moment.

I also started an inspirational quote book today. As part of the sorting (again) I found a lovely little book that my cousin got from Thailand with beautiful hand made paper in it and I thought that, since it was a beautiful looking book I would fill it with beautiful things that people have said. This was also kind of inspired by Julia Albain, as a lot of things are at the moment.

So, again this was a completely all over the place blog but that's my mind!

Quote of the day: 
"It is impossible to live without failing at something unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not lived at all"
J.K. Rowling

Today was awesome because: I got stuff cleared out!

To Kill A Mocking Bird (and some thoughts)

I'm going to start my book review thing today. Yesterday I was inspired to read more at read a chapter of TKAMB last night. I started reading this book because my friend read it for English Lit and everyone in their class loved it and really recommended it. At the moment though, I'm not too sure about it. I think it's probably because I've been reading it in tiny bits and haven't had much time to really get into it. So, as I said, I read a chapter of the book yesterday and I liked it. I like the way its told from a child's perspective and the narrative is interesting. I don't really have too much to say about it yet, I'm going to start writing down thoughts as I'm reading it as soon as possible. Basically, I'm not really into the book yet but it seems good so far.

I hope I'll get better at this reviewing thing, practice makes perfect I guess!

As I mentioned yesterday I was really really inspired by Julia Albain and the things I had read about her/of hers last night and that kind of carried into today. After reading her blog I decided that I definitely wanted to order her book because the way she wrote on her blog was just amazing, she has this amazing ability to write her thoughts down in a truly inspiring way. I don't know how she does it but it just made me want to experience a lot. I really don't have a clue what it is but just reading 2 of her blogs made me want to experience everything I can and be everything I want to be.

That whole paragraph probably sounds extremely sappy but I don't care.

Today I went to church as normal and was preparing for a lazy day on the computer not doing anything but then I got a call from one of my best friends asking if I would like to come out. Since it was ab amazingly hot day today and Julia's writing had inspired me to go for it, I agreed and we had a lot of fun! We ended up just sitting on a hill talking and laughing, two of the best pass times! Fumble and mumble bees were around and my friend got screamed because a dog appeared in front of her. Fun times

I think I'm going to start doing quotes or lyrics that just say a bit about what I'm feeling because sometimes that is the best way to show it so...
Lyrics of the day:
"Who can say if I've been changed for the better, but because I knew you I have been changed for good"
Wicked.
This just perfectly describes how I feel about my friends.

Today was awesome because: It felt like summer was here! (even if it may only have been for today)

Uhm, so I had a social life?

So, the past few days (okay, only thursday and friday) I have been suprisingly busy having a social life and kind of loved it!

Thursday was one of my best friend's birthdays so we all went out for a meal and back to hers for a sleep over. It was great! We went to a chinese buffet where I resisted the urge to make a racist AVPM reference (I'm not racist it just popped into my head) and we saw a VERY top heavy man who was very funny. After that we walked round town for a bit because our bus was late. That consisted of Sally dancing in front of a security guard, me making a complete fool of myself talking to someone who wasn't talking to me but I thought so and playing tag. Yes, it was a 16th birthday party, yes we are 15/16, yes we're childish, yes we know how to have fun. I love my friends. So much.

After the meal we went back to Sally's and drank a bit, laughed a lot and were our silly selves. I have to say, seeing friends drunk is fun! I surprised myself with how mum-like I became though, my friend kept going to the loo and all I could think was that she needed to have something non alcoholic to drink because I know alcohol can make you dehydrated. So, we have come to the conclusion that I'm going to be the one looking out for everyone and be the designated driver because I'm like that. I kind of like that though. I like taking care of my friends so its all good. After some funny drunk slurrings and a lot of laughs we decided to watch AVPM for the friends who hadn't watched it. That failed as the 2 friends who hadn't seen it just talked through it. But it was fun non the less. That took us to 1am because its so long and then we somehow stayed up talking until 5am. The things we talked about were deep. Like, sillily deep. It was great though, I enjoy talking about that kind of thing!

I managed to get about 2 hours sleep that night because the room was boiling and it was light by the time we settled down to sleep and Sally's family were getting up as well. So that was fun. Then, Friday I was a bit of a zombie until I went to choices. Choices was great, we had a BBQ even though it was raining and sat inside just chilling, as we do. That was also fun and I really wasn't that tired by the end of the day. Well, I wasn't that  tired until I lay on my bed. Then I basically collapsed, I must have gone to sleep straight away for the first time in ages.

Unfortunately I had to be up at 7 this morning to go for my second prom dress fitting. They said it should be ready by Wednesday which is good because prom is on Thursday. We went into town today as well and we found my prom jewelry and nail polish that matches my dress. So I now have everything for prom, except the dress! Fun!

Today I was looking up StarKid stuff on the internet and I was looking up Julia Albain and discovered all about her book and everything. She just seems like she has one of the most beautiful minds in the world. I really want to read her book but I can't decide whether to download the file or order a paper copy of the book, I really don't know what to do. One of the reasons Julia inspires me is because she's normal sized. The same goes for Jaime as well, I love Lauren Lopez but admiring really thin people like her tends to make me really insecure. It sounds silly but that's what happens to me. The fact that Julia and Jaime aren't tiny kind of helps me to accept myself. I haven't read too much about Jaime but the way Julia seems to think and write inspires me to write more and try and just do more. So, I got quite inspired by her today. It was kind of random but I liked it.

I wish I was a lot more creative though. I wish I could act and sing. I wish I was talented enough to be a theatre kid but I've tried that and I'm no good at it so I'll just do other things instead, there are lots of non creative things I can do with my time!

This blog has been long and kind of all over the place but that's what it's for! Just like my mind I guess, I love it!

Today was awesome because: I picked raspberries outside feeling kind of inspired and it just felt kind of amazing, I don't know why but it did. It's the simple things.

I should post.

So, I've not been posting much for a few days. Mostly because I couldn't be bothered but also because I have nothing to say. I just don't have anything to blog about really, but I feel like I should blog, so I am...
Knowing me though, I'll probably find a lot to say in this blog, because my mind seems to explode like that sometimes.

So, I'm going to do a prom update because it's next week and I have quite a lot of news! Today I had my practice prom hair appointment and I'm happy with it! I have a picture that I'll post at the end of this paragraph, so I now know how my hair is going to be, good times. Also, today the prom dress shop called to say that my dress is ready! Yayayayayayayayyyy! I'm going in tomorrow to pick it up. I can't remember if I mentioned it or not, but a few weeks ago I had my fitting and all the alterations are done now! So, we're going to pick it up tomorrow some time, fun times! I can't believe that prom is a week on Thursday! That's like soon and stuff. I know. Mid = blown.
So, this is my prom hair...

Okay, prom, girlyness over now! Sorry, Dan if you're reading this, I'm sad you can't go to prom :(

Anyway, what else have I been up to recently? Not much really, I don't actually have to do anything so I'm not doing that much really. Mainly I've been on the laptop creeping on StarKids and what-not. StarKid has pretty much taken over my life right now. As of today I have 2 fanfictions partly written. I tried to carry on with an old one today but I just wasn't in the mood I guess, it just wasn't going well so I gave up because it wasn't going anywhere. I decided to try starting another one but that didn't go that well either. So I guessI wasn't in the fanfic writing mood today.

I have been seriously creeping on the StarKids recently, probably a bad passtime but it's far to enjoyable to give up! It's probably bad all round but I just kind of want to be them a lot and that doesn't help. So, yeah, I think I need to see my friends more!

Also, I'm kinda loving tumblr a lot right now, seriously it's awesome. Just sayin'

I have now run out of things to say. I had a today was awesome because but I forgot it...so here's a different one!

Today was awesome because: I discovered this blog: http://imnotsadtoday.tumblr.com/ which is probably one of the best things on the internet. Ever.
I REMEMBERED IT YAYAYA SO...
Today was ALSO awesome because: I did the washing up in my prom heels whilst blasting out music because I could (and my mum said that if I don't wear my heels everyday from now until prom she won't let me go to prom)

The Starlight Walk

I had just written out a good blog and then blogger decided to mess itself up. Thanks for that. I'm going to try and re create it but it's going to be shorter, so sorry.

So, as you know (if you read yesterday's blog) I did the starlight walk yesterday/this morning. If you don't know what that is it's a midnight walk for ladies in my town to raise money for the local hospice, the one my dad was in. It is 6.5 miles (or 13 if you're crazy and want to go round twice) and starts at midnight. It was quite fun, a bit tiring but fun for the most part.

Towards the end I think I might have gone a bit crazy because I actually think I could have gone round a second time and done the whole 13 miles, I wouldn't have enjoyed it but I think I could have done it. Like I said, I'm crazy.

My muscles aren't thanking me this morning, my right leg objected a lot. So, that's fun this morning. But that's probably just me being a wimp, as normal! I surprisingly wasn't that tired and didn't actually go to sleep until about 5am, after watching a few (StarKid) videos on my iPod. I've not been very tired today actually, I'm just not hungry at meal times. Today has been a very lazy day. I am starting to get tired of these lazy days though, so I think I need to start on writing some fanfic/reading/being not as boring. That might happen next week!

Rambling ramblings of a teenager...


Today was awesome because: This morning my blog had had 144 views this month and my Starlight walk number was 144. Made me smile :)

Gah.

Don't ask about the title of this blog. I don't know. I had nothing else to call it so there you go!

I haven't blogged in a couple of days, mainly because I have bee on tumblr a lot (sorry). I got tumblr a while ago and liked it but moved to here because I prefered this kind of blog. But then I went on tumblr and saw the AMAZING StarKid stuff on there. As you almost definitely know, I am completely and utterly obsessed with StarKid. I saw some of these great StarzKid blogs and thought I'd have a look. Now I'm obsessed. There is so much amazing stuff on there. There are SO many StarKid blogs, with SO much good stuff on there. That is the reason my blog it titled I reblog a lot, because I reblog A LOT of stuff. I also put screen shots from my iPod up there. But I won't be abandoning this blog. For me, tumblr is about amazing pictures and gifs and blogspot is about good writing and recording my life. So I am obsessed with tumblr but promise to stay on here!
My tumblr is... http://justanotherstarkidblog.tumblr.com/
because that is what it is...

These past few days I haven't done anything and I'm loving it! I had my last GCSE on Wednesday and the end of the exam was the. best. feeling. ever. I love not having to revise and haven't got to the bored stage yet, so it's all good! I have been entertained with fangirling over StarKid and am probably going to start writing some fanfic because I love reading Tup fanfic so much. I will post updates about it on here soon.

Tonight I am doing the Starlight walk. This is a midnight walk that the hospice my dad was in that is either half a marathon (I think). So, to do this I need to still have energy to walk a lot at midnight which should be fun. Luckily, being off school has messed up my sleeping a bit so staying up shouldn't be too bad, the hard part will be not being a zombie. That is always hard. But hopefully it will be okay, I'll be with others so I might be okay. I don't know...

These past few days I have found myself wishing I could have got into the things I am into now a lot earlier. I wish I could be a PotterHead now. I've read the books but not seen all the movies and can't really remember much of the books. That is why I plan to read them this summer, after that I want to watch the films. I think I'm going to do that with my friends as some of them are PotterHeads. I wish I had found StarKid a lot earlier because then I may have become closer to more people earlier. I don't know, I just wish I could have been cooler earlier I guess. Oh well, maybe it's better that I found out now, now I have interesting things to do over the summer!

In these past few days I have sent off 2 things that will be given to StarKid. That's amazing. It means that TeamStarKid will know I exist. That's just wow. I really hope we get to see a response to them! I think both of the things I've contributed to are going to be totally awesome (sorry, I couldn't resist). They are both things that are going to be given/sent to the StarKid crew with a lot of fans' opinions/things they want to say to StarKid. So, I think these things are great :D

Ah, this has been an all over the place blog! Sorry!

Reading Blog/A doubley awesome day

So, I briefly mentioned before about my reading plans in a blog before but I'm just going to go into more detail today because I feel like it, as normal. As I mentioned before (I think), I plan to have a summer of reading and I was going to make videos about them but then I decided I was going to blog about it instead.

Since I have about 2 months off this summer with no revision/homework I have decided that I am going to re read Harry Potter. Since making this decision I have added a few books to the collection. I'm going to write about all of the books I am going to read as I am reading. I guess it'll be live a series of book reviews, I don't know how good at it I'll be at it but I just want to try it out, to see how I am at it. I'll never know if I don't try, right?!

So, here are the books I am planning to read, in the order I am planning to read and write about them:

• To Kill a Mocking Bird (I have already started this but I'm not very far into it)
• Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone 
• Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
  
• Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban 
• Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 
• Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix 
• Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
•  Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
• Looking for Alaska

I have already read all of the Harry Potters, just not since they came out and I haven't seen any of the movies so I should be re discovering the magic of Harry Potter quite soon. I figure I will have quite a lot of free time after tomorrow and should be starting on it soon!

All that is left is to tell you the VERY awesome things that have happened today...

Today was awesome because: I finished my revision for my GCSEs!!!! My last exam is tomorrow! Yay!


Todays was doubley awesome because: DENISE FREAKING DONOVAN REPLIED TO ONE OF MY TWEETS. Yup. That totally made my night. (Denise Donovan is in Starship)

My project

So, a while a go I mentioned this idea I have for a website for teenagers like me who have lost parents where they can just talk to others like themselves.If you didn't see the blog I talked about it in, here is a link for it...just click here I guess!

So, after I wrote this one of my good friends, Dan messaged me on facebook saying that he would help me with it and it looks like it actually might happen! We should be starting it after our exams are over, which should be soon! I do really want to make it though, it's something that I feel would have really helped me when I lost my dad to have someone who had been through it to talk to. So, I'm going to try and be that person for other people.

I just kind of wanted to mention it on here because I was wondering if there were any other people who would like to help us. I would love it to be a place where people could just talk, they wouldn't necessarily have to talk about heavy stuff, it would just be a place for people to talk to others similar to themselves. So, if you would like to help in any way just contact me on here/twitter etc.

Just a bit of an update on something I mentioned before.

A Very StarKid Blog...for once.

Yes, I am obsessed. Very obsessed. My life has kind of become a mix of revision and StarKid and nothing much else. That's mainly why I haven't blogged much, because I haven't got much to say! These past few days (actually, more like nearly a week now, wow) I have just been revising and watching stuff on YouTube. I guess I have found a lot more ways to get involved with the StarKid community.
StarKid things I have discovered in the past few days:

• The Bully Book (AWESOME)
• The live chat they did with RedVines
• The amazing StarKidness that exists on tumblr (WOW)
• Starkid (mainly Taz and Up) fan fiction 

I think I talked a bit about The Bully Book on my last blog, I guess it hadn't come out yet and I was excited about it. Well, it came out and I read it in 2 days. It is kind of amazing. If you can you should check it out! For some reason its listed as a children's book but I disagree with that, I think it is good for all ages! Maybe that's just my opinion but, oh well! I literally finished The Bully Book on the morning of my maths exam on Friday. I got ready and sat in the living room reading for as long as I could leave it. It turns out that is the perfect amount of time to finish the book! 

On Thursday there was a live "fireside chat" with TeamStarKid. It was at 6:30pm their time but 00:30 UK time so I ended up downloading the UStream app on my iPod Touch and stayed up reading The Bully Book until it was time to watch it. Which I did, half asleep. Thankfully it was only half an hour long, I expected it to be a lot longer but I'm kind of glad it wasn't because I don't think I could have stayed up much longer, after I had managed to wake up at 4:30am that morning. Clever me. So, that was awesome! I have watched it a few more times on the YouTubes because the sound was out of sync. So, I was shattered from that for a while!

In the past few days I have found the amazing StarKid community on tumblr. Seriously, the stuff on there is amazing! There is a fuck yeah for literally every StarKid and the things posted on there are so great its unbelievable! Just, wow! Through one of these tumblrs I have found the amazingness that is fan fiction. I found the whole think on the fuckyeahtazandup tumblr. The fan fiction with Taz and Up is just amazing! They are probably one of the best couples in StarKid history. I don't care that Lauren and Joe say that Taz and Up have a platonic relationship, they will always be in love in my head! Sorry, but they will! 

This is basically just my rantings about StarKid. As you can tell now, I am completely OBSESSED with TeamStarKid. They just seem like these amazing people and I wish so much that I'd have found out about their supermegafoxyawesomehot-ness earlier. Only StarKid can make people fall in love with Voldemort, make people feel sorry for a dick and get people to love bugs. Seriously, if my ramblings about them don't make you check them out, I don't know what will!

I may have to shut up now, I have spouted enough rubbish for one night.

 I leave you with an awesome thing...

Today was awesome because: I discovered Tup fan fiction

My 102nd Blog

I just noticed that I missed my 100th blog! I'm quite gutted! I literally saw it go from 95th to 99th blog and planned to announce my 100th blog but, of course, I missed it! Thats just what happens to me! So, I'm just making a point that this is my 102nd blog!

So, I feel like I haven't blogged in ages so I feel like I should update you on my life. Not much has really happened since Friday but, you know, I'm going to tell you all the boring stuff! Saturday and Sunday were boring revision days, nothing to report there. Yesterday (Monday) was an okayish day, I had a maths exam at 1pm so me and a few friends went into school to revise for a bit before the exam.Well, we planned to revise, it didn't work out to well. So, instead of revision we walked up to the shop/chippy near school and hung round in our friend's old form room for a bit before heading to the exam. It was quite fun, just being with my friends. Today, I had a Physics exam at 1 again and didn't bother going in early, I just went in for the exam. Both the exams were okayish, they could have been worse! I kind of like going in for these exams because it gives me a way to see my friends and talk to them and stuff. I actually miss school because of the people. It was so weird on Monday, being in school but not having a set time to be in a set place all the time. It was weird but I guess I'll have to get used to it!

In other, StarKid, news: I'm obsessed! I literally haven't stopped watching StarKid stuff when I'm not revising! Plus, I have converted Chloe, one of my best friends, into a StarKid! I love converting people into StarKids, its the best! Wow, I overuse exclamation marks when talking about StarKid. Today is kind of a big day for StarKid today, they have a book coming out! The book is a bit of a mystery in itself and its coming out at 6pm cst, which is midnight here in the UK. Unfortunately, I'm unable to stay up tonight because I need to get up early to go into school for (actual) revision tomorrow. But I'm actually really excited about it! I know its an e book so I won't need to order anything! Ahhh, excitement is making me not make sense! Basically, i'm obsessed with StarKid, the Bully Book is coming out today and I'm re watching AVPM/AVPS in honor of the Bully Book coming out!


Today was awesome because: I literally saw water evaporating off the path while going for a walk with my mommy.

A day of awesome things

There is one summer plan I have not remembered to mention one of my geekiest, yet probably the one I am most excited about! I plan to re-read the Harry Potter books, for many reasons. I had planned to make YouTube videos about them, recording my reactions and stuff but now I think I would rather blog about them now. One of the main reasons I was going to do this was to make the YouTube videos about it and get involved with the HP community on YouTube. But now I feel like I would prefer to blog about it because I find that a lot easier. So, I may try to do that as part of BEDA for August. So, thats another thing happening in the summer! I just wanted to let you know about that, because I felt like it!


As you will soon see, a lot of awesome things happened today! I didn't realize it until I was looking back on it, but it's true! I wrote one, then remembered another one, then another, then another! So, here they all are...

Today was awesome because: I went for a meeting at the bank today (awesome in itself - I feel so grown up saying that!) and the man who was talking to us just looked like the type of guy in an advert. But a very specific advert. I think it's the Pepsi Max advert, it's the one where there are a bunch of guys who do silly things to get out of jobs they have to do just so they can drink Pepsi (I think). Yes, it is a very random advert/thing to notice about someone but this guy just looked like a guy from one of those adverts. It amused me the whole time we were there, so that is my awesome thing for the day!

Today was also awesome because: I found John Green's book in Waterstone's! I never even knew that his book (or books) were available in the UK. So, I bought one of his books! It looks quite good actually, I'm looking forward to reading it!


Bonus today was awesome because: I was a child again! Me and my mum went on a walk today (in training for the starlight walk) and on the way we found a "play priority area" so, naturally we played! I decided to go down the slide and then we played stepping stones and just basically had fun! It was great!

Today was awesome AGAIN because: It was hot! For once!

My past 2 days.

I have had quite a good couple of days recently. I have seen my friends a lot and I absolutely love it! So, here is basically what I have been doing...

Yesterday I had a wonderful day with my friendlings out and about because we haven't had a chance to see each other/celebrate since leaving school. We planned to go see a film or something but when we arrived at the cinemas it was absolutely packed! So we scrapped that and walked up to Starbucks which was about 15 minutes away (I don't actually know, that was a complete guess) because, even though there is a costa coffee AT the cinemas, a few of our friends decided we HAD to go to Starbucks. I have weird friends, I think that's what makes me so weird! So we walked up there, got drinks/snacks and walked back. That took quite a lot of time and was very fun. On the way back we came across a random field that had long grass and kind of looked like it was straight out of a movie so we decided to sit there for a bit. That consisted of lying on each other, eating and (the 3 of us who know them) singing a long to AVPM songs. That was fun, although my hay fever made me pay for it last night/today. I think it was worth it! After some moaning about needing the toilet/hay fever starting to get bad we left the feild and walked to ASDA to relieve said needing of the toilet and buy some food. We did that and took our ben and jerry's mini pots to a random bit of grass and sat there and talked/played more AVPM. We also named a tree Kathryn Woods but thats something else...
After a while we saw one of our other friends who was meant to be meeting us but was with some other friends and so, after a considerable amount of yelling we got him to come and sit with us. That was fun, until the security guard came over and told us to go away. That resulted in some of us wanting to walk up to another field that was ages away and me saying no because I had to go soon. That was fun. So instead we walked somewhere for a bit, passed some swans and ducklings and ended up at a park near my house, at which I stayed until I had to go (well duh). So, that was a fun day. That probably doesn't sound to fun in writing but, believe me it was great! With my friends you don't really know what will happen and you can garrentee there will be some dirty jokes made because that's just us!

So, that was my fun day and today was actually okay. I went into school for physics revision because my teacher has been off a lot recently. That was actually okay, I prefer revision sessions SO much more than actual lessons, we always end up talking to the teacher about something completely unrelated to the subject which is fun. So, that was my day really, we had some laughs, learnt some stuff and it was fun to be with my friends, especially because I'm not really going to have that next year.

Those were my last couple of days!

In other, exciting news (well for me, probably not for you) my prom dress has come back and I'm going for a fitting for it on Saturday! Yay! It is actually 28 days until prom, not that I'm counting down to it or anything...

Today was awesome because: It was sunny!

Last blog of May!

So, it's the last day/blog of May! I can't believe its June tomorrow, thats just insane! It feels like May has only just begun but, at the same time it fees like the 1st May was forever ago! That always seems to happen at the moment...

So, because it's June tomorrow I thought I'd tell you about my summer plans! You know, because June is meant to equal summer and all. I mentioned a bit about my summer plans in my last blog but I decided to go into more detail because, well I don't know why, just because it gives me something to write about!

As you (probably) know, I am currently in the middle of my exams. My last exam is 15th June and I can not wait for it to be over! My last exam is Biology and I'm not too worried about it to be honest, I like Biology the most and I have about a week to revise just for that. But once its over I think I'm going to be so bored! Literally all I do is revise at the moment and I'm not going to know what to do with myself actually, expect more blogage out of boredom!

Two days after my last exam me and my mum are doing the starlight walk. The starlight walk is something that St. Roco's Hospice (where my dad was in the last few weeks of his life) does to raise money. It is a ladies only walk in the middle of the night and I think the whole thing is half a marathon. That should be fun, I'm expecting to be absolutely knackered and sore afterwards. I probably need to start getting in training but revision is my excuse for now! So, that should be fun and I'm glad I'm raising money for a good cause!

Then, in July I'm going on holiday with my mum for a week and a bit. Other than that I don't have any plans for July. I'm kind of looking forward to not doing anything in that month.

August will hopefully be a good month for me! I am planning on trying BEDA for the second time since I'm definatley going to be around in that month. I am also hoping/planning on volunteering with WASC (a charity that does summer/after school clubs for children with disabilities. I have contacted them and they said there is a program from 1st-27th August that I could help out with. They just need to contact me about training programs I need to do. That should be fun! I think that my BEDA for August will be better that for April because a) I won't be revising so I'll have more time to blog and b) I will actually be doing something I love (hopefully) which I can blog about.

So, that should be my summer! Expect those things to come.

This was kind of a hi, I'm going to talk about what I want to talk about, bye blog. Just a random one!

Today was awesome because: I met up with one of my best friends!

A blog of thoughts...

The other day I watched a film called Julie/Julia. If you haven't seen the film, its about a woman who decides to cook everything in a famous cook's book in a year and she writes a blog about it. It's a really good film but I was most interested in her blog. It looked like she was using blogspot for it and it was really interesting to see her write her blog (in around 2002) and see how old fashioned blogger looked. I love blogging and I love this website so it was just so cool to me to see how it was years ago compared to how it was know. I think blogger has changed a lot now, I don't know whether its necessarily completely for good or not, blogger certainty seems to be a lot less active than it was a few years ago. Moral of the story: blogger seems to have changed, this was a random, pointless paragraph...

This may sound really weird and maybe a bit selfish/self obsessed but I honestly feel like my mind works in a very different way to a lot of people's do. I don't know why, I just notice the weirdest things, as I was talking about in that first paragraph. I don't know why, I just kind of seem to see the things that others don't. I'm often way more concerned about watching the supporting actors or the chorus in films/shows/tv programs. The behind the scenes stuff and the lives of actors in my favourite shows is what I like most. I'm also completely fascinated by people's relationships with each other, when I'm out in public etc. I always try to work out the relationships between people, if there's 2 people sat together I always try and work out if they're siblings/friends/family/in a relationship. I guess its just something I've always done/ That probably says a lot about me, I've no idea what but it probably does. It's just something I wanted to say.

I have officially now finished school since September which is very weird for me. I have such a long time off, after 15th June I actually don't have anything I have to do! I'm going to be so bored! I can't wait! This summer is hopefully going to be a good one! After prom I'm having a month where I'm completely on holiday but then in August I'm hopefully going to be volunteering with a charity for children with special needs for the whole month. Sometime in these months I plan to get a social life! Leaving school will hopefully have a good effect on my life. So, they are my plans for the next few months, I just felt the need to say them on here!

Recently, someone I look up to on YouTube has been talking about this book/blog called 100 awesome things, if you haven't seen it, have a look now. It's basically something to remind people of the awesome things in life. This is why I do my "Today was awesome because" at the end of my blog. Today I have a few from these few days that I'm going to share with you:

Awesome things in the past few days:

• I got new headphones on Friday!
• On Friday, me and Dan (see my last blog, it mentions him) were walking around school and started singing Pigfarts, pigfarts here I come, pigfarts pigfarts yum yum yum. The corridors were mostly empty but just as we got into it a teacher walked by. The look on his face was priceless!
• Today someone put something I thought was really cool (you might even say awesome) on twitter. The said our generation (people born in 1993-1999) have lived in three decades, two centuries, and two millenniums and we're not even 18 yet. That is just one of the best things I have heard in a long time and it makes me happy to hear it!
• Today I bought £30 worth of clothes! For the first time since nersury I won't be wearing a uniform at least some days out of the week. I don't have enough clothes for that! I only had 2 pairs of jeans (I only ever wear jeans) so I bought 2 more today! I also managed to get a dress, so that is why my day was awesome today! 

Real last day.

Today was our real last day. It was very emotional and worse that Wednesday but I think leaving may end up bringing our friendship group closer together (hopefully). We didn't do much at all today, just did an exam, ate and took pictures. Fun! I was a completely emotional wreck by lunch and the end of the day, it was kind of embarrassing but oh well, I prefer that then being emotionless. I love and will miss all my friends so much so I'm going to dedicate a little bit of my blog to each of them. Here goes...

Sally: Sally has been one of my best friends since year 7 and she is going to a different college to me next year. I'm going to miss her so much! School really won't be the same without her amazing smiley face! She is seriously one of my closest friends and I hope we are friends for a long long time to come! Here we are on the bus in the morning, I don't know what I'm going to do without her next year!

Chloe: I have known this girl since I was 5, we have been in the same class for 12 years and I can't believe we're hardly going to be in many (if any) classes together next year. I will miss that so much! She has been my best friend since our pegs were next to each other in reception. This is us...

Beth: Beth is one of the happiest, most dirty minded people I know! She hardly ever has anything other than a smile on her face and laughs at almost everything. She has made me a lot more childish and I love it! I have actually only known her for a few years but it feels so much longer! This is us being immature...

Emma: Another girl I have only known for a short time. I never knew I could become so close to someone in just over 2 years but somehow I have managed it. She is one of the nicest people I know and we are so random and funny when we're together. My best memory of her is sitting on a bench under our brollies in the rain one summer, just talking. This is us being the weirdos we are...

Amy: I've only actually been close with Amy for about a week but I've actually become really close to her. She turned me into a StarKid and I helped to turn her into a Gleek! She is crazy and wacky but I love her for it! This is what we do when we're together...

Ria: This is another friend I have known since year 7 and we haven't always got on too well but recently we have become a lot closer. I love her loads and really really hope we stay close next year! She's kind of camera shy but I have a picture of her as an angel with us all (the one with dark brown/blackish hair)...

Dan: This boy is the nicest boy I know! He is just always so kind and generally lovely and smart and stuff. I really don't know what I would do without him! He is like a brother/gay best friend to me. This is us messing around...

Dom: Dom is like my big brother, I have known him forever and I can't imagine life without him! He is also a really really nice guy and we kind of argue like brother and sister sometime! This is one of my favourite pictures of us both...

These are the guys I want to be little old ladies/men with. They are the best and craziest people I know, I wouldn't change any of them for the world! If any of you are reading this, I love you so much!!! Just needed to say it...

Celebration day.

Today was our kind of official last day, or our celebration day. Basically, its a day to dress up and be silly and celebrate the fact that high school is nearly over for us! It was very emotional and I cried several times, mostly because one of my best friends won't be going to the same college as the rest of our friends next year. Also, one of my best friends wrote a really really lovely paragraph thing (I keep trying to call them posts, internet obsessed much?) that made me cry without even reading it properly. I just knew it would make me cry from the look on his face when he was writing it. He is seriously one of the sweetest, kindest guys I know! I'm so glad we're going to the same college next year! Okay, end of gushing. Today was so fun, me and my friends dressed up as angels and I think we looked really good! At the end of the day we had a big concert where the teachers and some students performed. I literally signed yearbooks and took pictures all day! I don't think I'll be doing much tomorrow either, oh the joys of finishing school!

In other news, I am still very very obsessed with StarKid and have basically been revising and watching YouTube for the past few days. Oh how fun my life is! I don't really have much to say now...so I'm going to leave you with some pitures of today...ENJOY!

Me and my form friends, as angels!

Me in a 'fro, as you do!

Me and one of my best boy-friends, Dom.

Us angels in the morning

Me, Amy and Sally (angel, Belatrix and angel) these are 2 of my best friends!

Me and my other best boy friend!

So, that was a bit of my day! It was great, as you know!

Today was awesome because: I was angelic!

I have a new, probably unhealthy obsession

My day today has mainly revolved around revision and watching Team StarKid videos on YouTube. Yes, that is my obsession. I feel like I need to make up for not finding out about their awesomeness earlier! If you don't know who they are then just search A Very Potter Musical on YouTube and prepare to become obsessed! Seriously, I cannot describe how amazing they are. I'm just fangirling all over everywhere now.

Just in case you don't look them up (probably because you're crazy) I'm just going to do a short introduction type thing to them. Basically, they are the totally awesome minds that created AVPM, AVPS, MAMD and Starship. If you don't know these plays then you need to! Darren Criss (now in Glee as Blaine) is one of the founding members of the company and he writes all the songs in their plays. Now, if that isn't enough awesome for you, the rest of the company are all super talented and super funny!

Okay, promoting is (kind of) over now.

The point of this is the fact that these guys (and girls) have kind of taken over my life recently. I have this habit of becoming obsessed with things and this is my new obsession. That was probably one of the most state the obvious things I have ever said but, you know, thats what I do! Also, I officially want to go to Pigfarts and meet Rublerawr!

My favourite cast members are:

• Lauren Lopez (Draco Malfoy and my girl-crush)
• Joey Richter (Ron and the guy I have the biggest crush on at the moment)
• Joe Walker (Voldemort and Umbridge, the only guy who can make a lot of girls fall in love with him while playing a villain, a dick and a woman)
• Darren Criss (damn that G.L.E.E. always making twisted abominations of everything)
• Jaime Lyn Beatty (Ginny and one of the funniest people in the world)
• and the rest...

 I may have been watching StarKid related videos for most of this Saturday...
Oops.

Oh well! Its a good way to spend "the last day on earth" right?

I forgot until about that until just now. I seem to have lived through the first end of the world scare in my lifetime (that I can remember) so I see that as an accomplishment. I never believed this judgement day scare thing. If you hear a little bit about this guy who predicted it and have any sense in the world you can tell its a load of hogus bogus. This guy has used "maths from the bible" to predict the end of the world and judgement day. So, apparently today at 6pm (no idea what time zone) God was coming down to judge everyone and take all the good people up to heaven with him and everyone else would stay here on Earth for a few months in hell before the world was ended in October. Cool. Its currently 10pm in England and well into Sunday in Australia and places around there and if it has happened then hell looks a lot like Earth. It's not hot or anything! Fun times.

So, in conclusion, I am very very obsessed with StarKid Productions and the world was meant to end (kind of) today but didn't. Also, I like brackets and if you got any of the references in here your totally awesome!

Today was awesome because: It was a StarKid day!

If you really knew me.

So, today I watched a TV program called If You Really Knew Me. I have heard of it before but it is an American program and I've never seen it on TV over here before but I was flicking through channels today and I found it. I had heard people talking about how good it was but I didn't really know what to expect. I just thought it was amazing. The program made me think about what would happen if that same thing happened at my school and what I would say. If you don't know the program then this won't make any sense to you.

This program is basically about something that people are taking into schools in America that actually looks like a really good idea. Basically, people go into schools and have a day where they do loads of exercises to break down the cliques and stereotypes at schools. It seems like they do some ice breaker activities for fun then they get into groups and have to finish the sentence "If you really knew me you would know..." and just talk to their group about any problems or issues they have had in the past. It seems like a really good idea and seemed to really help people.

Like I said earlier the whole time I was watching the program I was thinking what if this exact same thing happened at my school. I honestly don't think it would be as successful in my school, or they would have to do it with just the last 3 years as I don't think younger people would really benefit as much from it. I would like to see if it would work in English schools though, I would be kind of reluctant to open up to some of the people in my year. I know that is the whole point of the program but I really don't know if I could trust some people in my year with my secrets and stuff. I don't know, its a great idea but I'm not sure how it would work here. Some of the kids in the program seemed to think like me at the start but it worked out. So honestly I don't know what would happen in my school.

I was also thinking the whole time about what I would actually say if I were on the program. I came up with a few but they're very personal so I'm not going to say them all. I can say one though. I know I would say "If you really knew me you would know that my dad died when I was 12 and I don't think I've ever got over it". Thats one that most of my close friends know at least part of.

So, that is just something I really wanted to talk about today because it really changed my thinking. Signing off  now! Bye!

Boring Sunday Is Boring

I didn't really do much today. I went to church and did revision/homework for the rest of the day. Just a normal Sunday. I am kind of very nervous about the exams I have this week. I don't feel prepared AT all. On Tuesday I have exams in my 2 least favorite subjects: Music and RS. I hate them both and they are probably also my worst subjects as well. So yeah, Tuesday is not looking good for me.

Wow, I'm being so negative at the moment! There was a time when I decided that I was going to be happy all the time and just have the happiest outlook on life but that didn't work out. I found myself getting really really depressed after a few days, I guess I need to have some highs and lows in my day otherwise I have super high days then super low days. I mean, I was really really happy for a few days and then I was really really depressed  for a few days. So, it didn't work out. I don't really know what to do, I wish I could be one of those people who is perminantley happy but it just doesn't work out for me. They all say that happiness is a choice and all that but when I tried that it it just didn't work. I wish it did but it doesn't.

I don't really know what to say, I wish I had one of those minds that are always thinking and have so much to say but I don't. I wish I was a lot of things I'm not. I guess everyone is like that.

This blog was such a depressing I-wish-I-was-this-but-I'm-not blogs. Sorry

Today was awesome because: I watched the King's Speech with my mama!

Type like I talk. Type the wrong words.

Random title. Fun times. So, I blogged yesterday and I'm also blogging today, thats big stuff! So, what's happened in the last 2 days (since yesterday was a blog from the day before). I feel the need for a list! What happened in the past few days:

• On Friday, I went bowling with some friends
• I took 124 pictures at this bowling
• I realized I say so way to much!
• We had to scrap our costume idea and come up with a new costume idea
• We went to town to get stuff for our costumes
• I revised, but not as much as I should have

So, I'll start with what happened with our costumes for celebration day. Our rubick's cube idea needed 8 people for it to work and one person dropped out of our group so we had to come up with another idea. But we did so its all good! We have decided to be angles because most of the teachers like us and it's the only thing we could think of. So, yeah, that's what we are going for celebration day! 

Today we went to town and got wings/dresses for it. So I think most of the costume is sorted! 

Yesterday a group of us went bowling with a youth club we go to and we had a really good time! I'm going to put some of my favourite pictures on here because I can.

This is everyone who was there, not that many people but they're kind of my best friends and I love them!

My friend, Beth, being her usual dirty minded self, this is why I lover her!

My new name, Kahryn. Pronounced a bit like Karen in a Welsh accent (you have to pronounce the H.

A weird picture of me that I strangely like.

Me and Chloe, my friend I've known since I was 4.

Dan with "his precious" bowling ball (It was the smallest, lightest one we got and was just right for me)

Me, kissing my friend, Emma's, cheek. Because I love her.

A picture of the bumper cars we went on. These included me managing to hit my teeth with my camera. Fun!

So, that was my night in pictures. I took a lot! It was a fun night and I love taking pictures when me and my friends are together to remind me of the good times we had when I'm all old and stuff.

Today was awesome because: I bought some nail polish that cracks and looks really cool!

Stuff, stuff, stuff

I wrote this blog yesterday but blogger went down while I was writing it so I'm publishing it today, I may blog again later tonight but I just wanted to put it up here. So, here you are...

So, I have a bit of revision-free time right now so I'm going to blog! I don't usually blog during the week but I didn't stay after school as long as normal and feel like I have more time tonight. So, thats what I'm doing! I don't really know what to talk about really, I've just been revising and going to school and thats basically it. My life is boring right now. I can not wait until the summer. When my exams are over I will just have so much more extra time, I won't know what to do with myself!

I have got a few blogs I want to write and will probably do that at the weekend and post them through the week. So, this was just kind of me checking in and making excuses for not blogging, so, yeah. Just wanted to say hi!

I'm going to do a today was awesome because, just because I think it is a good thing for me to do.

Today was awesome because: We went to one 10 min revision session then a quick 2/3 min question-type revision session. Yeah, that was fun!

Stuff

So, since I last blogged a lot of things have happened so I'm going to do a good old fashioned list because I like lists! So, what has happened since 30th April?

• I watched A Very Potter Musical (AMAZING)
• Osama Bin Laden got killed
• I got my first exam (drama) out of the way
• I stayed at school till 6pm 2 nights practicing for the previously mentioned exam
• We got our costumes for celebration day sorted!
• It was my mum's birthday
• It was also star wars day (May the 4th be with you)
• I revised (as always)
• I gave serious thought to my website idea and decided I really want to give it a go
• Some other things that I can't remember probably happened

Now for the talking/explaining part! I'm just going to go in order of the list, not chronological order because I just can't be bothered thinking...

A Very Potter Musical is something that I have known of for quite a while but I've not really been bothered about it before. I don't know why I just decided that I wanted to watch it, I just did. It's probably all because of the supermegafoxyawsomehot Darren Criss! Yes, that was a AVPM reference. Because I'm that sad. Really, if you haven't seen it, GO SEE IT NOW. The starts a little meh but I promise it gets better! So, fangirl over!

I really want to talk about Osama Bin Laden's death because I feel like I have completely opposite views to everyone on this. I don't know, I just can't actually see something positive from his death. I just can't not think that there won't be a retaliation from his followers now and I just can't celebrate the fact that a person is dead, no matter what. It seemed that most of America was celebrating and I just cannot do that. Maybe thats just me, I don't know. One of the perfect comments I have read is this quote: "So, we killed someone who killed a lot of people to show that killing people is wrong?" That quote/tweet just sums it up for me really. But I said that to one of my friends and they shouted at me. I guess its an issue everyone is always going to disagree on. 

On Thursday I did my first exam of the summer! I got my drama exam over and done with! This exam has caused me so so much stress and annoyance. For ages I have been looking forward to the end of Thursday. Now I have so much more time to do other work and revise and other, equally interesting things. I think our performance went OK, we were in the best place, I think. Being 2nd meant we didn't have the horrible nervousness of being first but we also got it over and done with quickly. All the other groups were amazing! I'm just hoping I get a C. Drama is the only subject that I am not confident that I will get above a C on so I'm kind of glad its out of the way and I can focus on my next exams now. 

The last thing I want to talk about is our costumes for the end of school. I found some rubik's cube costumes last night and suggested it to everyone. Thankfully everyone liked it! For once, we agreed on something! Then, this morning one of my friends came up with the idea that we could all be one big rubik's cube. Thankfully there's 8 of us so 4 of us can be corners and 4 of us can be sides. It's going to be ace!! Today we kind of completely sorted the end of school! We decided on our costumes, (hopefully) got a full limo and table for prom! Yeah, so today has been a successful day! Overuse of exclamation points! Cool. 

So, I'm going to go now. I'm not going to go through the other points because they're pretty self explanatory. So, yeah, bye....

Last day of April.

So, its the last day of April. Wow, its gone so fast! I have decided to do a list blog today because it's fun! So, the things that happened in April:

• Revision started! 
• I attempted BEDA and failed epicly (writing a total of 14 blogs this month)
• I went to Barcelona
• I revised some more
• School put too much stress on me/everyone
• I turned 16!!
• Some more revision went on
• Catherine Middleton and Prince William got married!!! (AMAZING)
• Most of England had a total of 8 days in school, in the whole month.

So, exciting month! It seems like its gone so fast but at the same time, looking back, it feels like it was ages ago that Ben got sent out for a long stand and a big wait. It's weird how time can pass so fast yet so slow at the same  time. Time seems to do that.

So, anyway moving on. I want to talk about some things about what has happened in the past few days, especially the Royal Wedding. I have already mentioned it but, for some reason the whole thing has stuck with me and it just seemed so special, I absolutely loved it! I woke up at my usual time (around 8ish) and went downstairs to watch the coverage of the guest arriving and stuff. I watched that in my PJs and dressing gown until 12ish when the wedding and everything (apart from the bit on the balcony) was over. I had an hour to get dressed and then I watched the balcony bit. The whole thing was just amazing! Kate looked so beautiful and her dress was amazing, don't even get me started on the cute bridesmaids and page boys! It was so romantic and it seems like a true fairy tale. The families just seem so normal now. It's weird, I had absolutely no interest in the Royal Family up until yesterday but now I'm really in to it. I have no idea what the appeal is, I just loved it and Kate and William make THE perfect couple. Also, that wedding was the first wedding I have ever seen so it was kind of doubley amazing. 

Fun Fact: Me and anyone else called Kathryn/Catherine/any version of that name could get free transport in London and free entry into the London Zoo! If only I found out before yesterday, if I knew it before I may have taken advantage of it!

Other than that nothing much happened. I did have plans today but they fell through, unfortunately. Oh well, maybe next time! 

One of my best friends contacted me today about my idea I was talking about in my last blog post and it sounds like it may happen at some point! 

Going now. I think this blog has been quite a good one to be honest.

My last day of my fail of BEDA. 

See you next month!

I have an idea...

Today, for some reason, this big idea came to me. I don't know and can't remember how or why it came to me but it just did. I have this idea for a website where children who have lost one (or maybe more) parent can go and just talk to someone. I remember when I lost my dad I really did not know what to do. I can't even remember how I got through it but I didn't really have anyone to talk to and just kind of went through it on my own kind of counseling myself and felt quite alone. I don't think my friends really knew how to talk to me or support me with it. Because of these reasons I really want to set up a site where people my age can just talk to each other about what they went through or even just talk about their life with people who have been through similar things. I had an idea to make it like one of the bullying sites I have seen where there are a group of mentors you can chat to, probably live chatting. I really really want to make something like this but I don't think I'm clever/internet-smart enough to set it up.

I'd really like some help doing this. I don't care what your background is, I don't care who you are, if you could help me set this up I will be eternally grateful. I honestly don't think I can do this alone and if I do I may have to wait a few months but it is something I would love to do and would love to be able to help and meet others in similar situations to me. I have no idea if this will happen, I really hope it does and I really hope I have made sense while explaining this, if not, try reading this again and if it still doesn't make sense, I'm sorry, contact me and I'll try and explain it better!

Birthday, looking back.

So, as you can probably tell, its my 16th birthday! In fact, as I was writing that last sentence I officially turned 16! Just saying I'm 16 seems so weird. It seems so old. I was thinking about where I thought I would be when I was 16 a few years ago. I had this plan, a while ago, that I would ask for recording equipment and put my original songs (which were bad) onto myspace. That sounds so lame but it was around the time when everyone was getting discovered and becoming famous from myspace. I had this big plan that I would get microphones and stuff and put these songs up and get descovered and become famous. That was my amazing career plan when I was about 13. Oh how things have changed! I was so convinced I was going to be famous yet now I couldn't care less about fame. I was also convinced that I would be so sorted and I would know myself so much. I thought I would have my own style, be so confident and look like the old girls I saw with their friends all the time. Yet I don't feel like I am any of those things. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy and love my friends and  am quite confident but I don't fully know myself but I feel like that is one thing that I may never know. But i am happy (most of the time) and love my friends and my mum. I am quite happy with myself but I am not fully sorted in myself. Oh well, I guess that will come in time.

Woah, deep(ish) part of the blog over! So far today I have opened presents, lazed and read in the sun. For my birthday I got Josh Sundquist's autobiography (AMAZING - I'm on page 52 already), a top related to tetris, a book about Wicked, Glee DVD and lots more (including chocolate, since its easter). Later on today I have friends coming over for a BBQ and a sleepover which should be good. So, I did an early blog because I really wanted to talk about what I talked about.

Now I have run out of things to say so I'm going to go...

Tired, Yet still Blogging

I hope you are happy! I have had such a boring day yet I'm actually really tired right now. I have literally been revising all day. I had to catch up on what I'd missed so it was straight revision, interrupted by laziness. Not an interesting day. I don't even know why I'm blogging about it. I don't really have anything to say to be honest, other than the fact that it's my birthday tomorrow! I am going to be 16!! Wow, that sounds so old! I can't believe it, I'm going to be more expensive on buses and for the cinema and stuff. Plus, I can drive a tractor!

I am going to end on that very random note because I'm just trying to get into the habit of blogging at the moment.

Not Blogging every day At All

I said I would try to blog every day. I didn't. If you saw me on Monday night you would understand. I have just been so ridiculously stressed this week. On Monday I had to learn a 1 and a half page thing for Spanish the next day. I also had a past paper to do that would take me 1 hr 15 mins. So, that got me very stressed, along with the fact that I stayed behind after school for about 2 hours. After walking home I literally worked on my Spanish all night and had no time to relax/blog/do other revision. I stayed on Tuesday as well and got told that I needed to be more stressed than I all ready was which did not help. Having my drama teacher telling me I have to have more stress after how stressed I was the previous night was very hard and I turned into a bit of a bitch in that lesson. Wednesday was more of the same really, it was mostly filled with dreading Thursday. On Thursday I had to get into school an hour early (7:30) and stay for what I thought would be a really long time. It didn't end up being too bad. I think I was so focused on not being a bitch to my friends that I actually seemed to have quite a good day. I lived through it and had a lazy night then quite a busy day today.

Today was quite a productive day really. We got a few things from a packed ASDA, got some stuff for my mum for the garden and successfully bought prom shoes and a summer dress. I'm so happy with both the things I bought today! I was having trouble finding a dress because I don't feel like any dresses really suit me. But this dress was really nice and it actually suited me! If the weather is nice on Sunday, I'm probably going to wear it! The prom shoes are really simple but I like it because it means my dress is the focus and I can wear them with other things as well. The heel is quite big as well, which I'm happy with. My mum wanted me to get a small heel but I didn't want to and, for once, I got what I wanted over what my mum wanted for me! Now I just need to practice walking in them with a long skirt/dress. I'm happy!

I found this picture today, through twitter, and it is so ridiculously me it is un-real so I had to include it in todays blog. 

Sunday Funday...but not really...

So, today has been a boring Sunday, but I'm still going to blog! I hope you're proud! I went to church, went shopping, had lunch and revised for the whole time my aunt and uncle were here. So, a suckish day. I have revised so much and I still need to do more. But its all for a good reason so I'm going to carry on and make myself be motivated for the next few months.

Anyway, as I have nothing else to say, I'm going to do a few random facts about me. Because, I don't know why, because I feel like it!

1. When I had this idea I had something to tell you but it has completely gone out of my head now. So I actually don't have an interesting fact to share, maybe I'll think of some in time.
2. As you probably know if you know me in real life/have read most of my blogs, I am very obsessed with YouTube. I am subscribed to way too many people and watch videos every single day I have internet. I started to make my own YouTube videos but they were very bad and I couldn't keep up. I plan to start making good videos in the summer.
3. I have said this on twitter but I am going to say it on here, I feel like I get on with boys a lot easier, yet most of my friends are actually girls
4. I am an only child. I am also quite awkward. Those 2 things, I think, are connected. I feel like I am quite awkward because I didn't grow up with many other children. I had friends, but there wasn't anyone around in my house
5. I have now run out of facts.

I think I may do this every so often when I have nothing to blog about. So, this was fun...
Bye!

So, yeah, I suck, once again...

I know I promised you I'd blog before I went away and I didn't. Yes, I suck. I don't know why, I just haven't been inspired to blog recently so I figured that if I took a break I'd come back liking it more. I haven't really been inspired but I want to force myself to blog more because, when I can, I really enjoy it. Its not just my blog, I have kind of abandoned DailyBooth as well, I need to get more internety again! So, I'm going to try. Its going to be hard around my GCSEs but I'm definitely going to get better at it once my exams are over and I actually have time that isn't taken up by revision/putting off revision/relaxing from revision. As you can see, my life is kind of taken up by revision at the moment. So, my blogs may not be interesting but they will be blogs!

While I haven't been blogging I've been in Barcelona, searching for prom shoes and, as you can guess, revising. Barcelona was good, I really miss the great weather now I'm back in miserable old England. It was quite nice weather today though, so hopefully we brought the good weather back with us! In Barcelona we did all the tourist buses, sightseeing, shopping and holding on to our bags because of all the pick pocket scare-stories. Fun times. I missed the internet terribly and worried about the revision I should have been doing that my mum would not let me do. As you can tell, revision for GCSEs is pretty much taking over my life and I have promised myself that I'm going to sacrifice my social life for revision if I have to. I really want good results, so I am forcing myself to be motivated.

Honestly, one of main the reasons I am working so hard is probably because my friends (especially one of my best friends who's in all my lessons) are very smart and work very hard and get good results. I know I should want to succeed for my own benefit only but I know I'm not. I just can't help myself. I guess its not such a bad thing that something is motivating me to revise, but I hate how much I am influenced by other people. I guess thats just human nature but I do wish I could be a bit more individual. Maybe I'll just grow out of it but it's something I have to live with or change, I haven't decided yet. I guess it'll make me a better person in time so we'll just wait and see I guess.

I had a few huge paragraphs here and blogger decided not to save it and to mess up when I decided to publish it. So, lets try this again...

Yesterday was full of revision and general nothingness while my mum was in town. I should have blogged but I didn't, I'm sorry! I've kind of been very tired all the time. Today we had our keyboard lesson where I found out that I failed my music theory exam I did a while a go. I was kind of gutted about it but I'm okay about it now. I think it might be the only proper exam I have failed. I guess I have to fail some time. But that is another thing that has made me more motivated. After that we went prom shoe shopping. We started out at Windsors where we didn't find anything so moved on to Maccys, Next and M & S for lunch and more shopping. We found some possible shoes and a possible bag at Next but didn't buy either of them. The shoes were really pretty, they just didn't fit very well and the heel was a bit too small for me. I really really liked the bag we found but were not too sure about whether it would go with my dress or not so decided to leave it for now. We did get my bra at M & S though! I'm sure you're all very interested in that. I need my bra and shoes by the time my dress comes and needs fitting in May which, surprisingly, isn't that far away.

So, girly part over now and I can't remember what else I wrote about now so I'm going to finish off. I think I am going to try to do this daily from now on but if I can't cope I won't but I will blog at least once a week, hopefully more and my good blogs will be at weekends, just so you know.

Today was awesome because: I got a prom bra!

Hi Bye

So, I'm off to a sleepover now so have a quick blog once again. I'm sorry. I suck, I promise a proper blog before I go away!!

Tired, Can't be Bothered.

The title is my mood. I am exhausted. I have been in school, doing drama for 2 days straight and it has made me knackered. I know I promised you a proper blog yesterday, but I don't know, I kind of can't be bothered. Oh wow, I suck at this BEDA  thing.

So, quick run down of my days. Yesterday I went to school, came home, waited for my aunt and uncle to arrive and then we went out for a meal. The food was nice but the company can be exhausting. Today I said bye to my aunt and uncle, went to school, came home, revised and lazed a bit. Busy. Not that fun. So, that was the last 2 days of mine in about 2 minutes. Hope you enjoyed it!

I'm sorry, I can't be bothered anymore I kind of just want to lie in bed forever now, so thats what I plan to do soon. Only not forever, I'll wake up at some point. It will be later than the last 2 days though, because I don't have to go to school. Thank God!

Today was awesome because: I got a lot done!

Quick blog :)

I've had quite a busy day and haven't actually been on a computer/laptop all day so I'm just kind of checking in. I am now checked in and am now going. I promise a proper blog for you tomorrow!

Cuatro

Yes, I have turned Spanish in my blog titles apparently. I don't have much to say today really, just sayin' hey. I'm kind of tired and haven't done that much today so its going to be a boring blog today I think. I have been having a very lazy day, doing nothing and revising, so I don't have much to tell you today.
Enough about how boring today was.

Tomorrow I am in school, even though it is the holidays, I have to practice my drama performance. I'm in school from 9am till 3pm, then my aunt and uncle are visiting us. So, sounds like I have a busy day tomorrow, not sure when I'll be able to blog, I guess I'll be blogging from my iPod.

So, as predicted, this was a boring blog.

Today was awesome because: It was lazy!

Numero tres

So, today has been a boring day which usually results in a boring blog but I'm going to attempt to go against what I normally do because that is what BEDA is about for me. I went to church, watched TV, revised and watched videos. That is my day. Nothing interesting happened at all so I'm going to move on now.

Today I spent some time on a site called Ask Elizabeth. I spent quite a lot of time on there. It really is an amazing site. The concept is basically to help teenage girls who have certain questions or are going through certain things in their lives. I spent some time on the site looking at the videos that are up there. I spent the most time on the section about loosing loved ones because it is the section that I can relate to the most, having lost my grandparents and my dad when I was younger. It nearly made me cry but I think that is good sometimes. I could relate to a lot of the girls on there but it really made me realize how lucky the kids growing up in America are, as they seem to grow up much slower than the kids here.

I do feel, and have felt for some time, that the children in America grow up a lot slower than the children here in the UK do. I have a few reasons for this and, since I enjoyed doing a list the last time I did one in this blog, I have decided to make a list of these reasons.

• Children in America go start high school aged 14/15 whereas in the UK we start high school when we are 11, I feel like high school forces you to grow up a lot and completely changes you.
• From the American videos/TV programs I have seen all the kids seem to act a lot younger, a lot of times I hear about a lot of people the same age as me like the things I would expect younger people to like a lot more.
• American teenagers don't really have to have big exams/choices until they are 18, whereas we have to choose our options at 14 and our A levels at 16 which could effect the rest of our lives.
• As far as I know, less kids in America are getting pregnant at 14ish, whereas I now know someone in my school who had an abortion at 13 and got pregnant at 14. The sad thing is that, compared to some others, this girl is relatively old.

Okay, so those are the reasons I feel like American kids grow up a lot faster than the kids here in the UK. Let me know if some of my facts are incorrect and this is just my opinion, I just wanted to share it because that is what this blog is about to me.

Today was awesome because: I did a lot of revision!

Day 2 :)

So, I don't have an interesting title for this blog, so I'm just going to call it day 2. I really have an urge to make BEDA a more creative thing where I talk about stuff other than just my day, I think it will make my blog a lot better in the end. I'm not too sure what exactly I will be writing about, I just know I need to do something better, so I just thought I'd inform you of that. In the meantime I will just talk about my day while I figure it out.

So, most of my day was spent at the hairdressers getting my hair done. It literally takes hours to do my hair which sucks but I like it so I can live with it. They managed to get some die on to my white top, that did not impress, as you can guess. But its all okay, it washed out. Other than that I haven't done much, I attempted to revise but gave up after doing one subject (I'm meant to do at least 2 a day) but I'll just have to do extra tomorrow. My holiday isn't going to be much of a holiday, I know it because I have so much revision and school work to do. But its worth it and I get 3 months off school in the summer! So, in conclusion, its all good!

Ever since I got this blog I have been considering starting a separate blog for all my YouTube fan girling thoughts but I don't know because I figure I might as well do it here as something I can talk about quite well (I think) so it might make this blog a bit more interesting. Honestly, this blog post is just kind of me talking about what this blog is about. I have come to the conclusion that this blog is just my thoughts and a random place where I can talk to and about myself.

So, a weird blog post today but a blog post non the less. That is always good!

Today was awesome because: It was a lazy day!

BEDAMDIIS Day 1 :)

So, its April 1st, that means a few things:

• It's April fools day!
• I am going to Barcelona!
• It's 24 days till my birthday!
• My version of BEDA begins!

That was a lot of exclamation points! The main reason I use exclamation points instead of smiley faces because I feel like smiley faces look silly in blogs and things like that. Just thought I'd explain that. I'm kind of excited for April, apart from the revision, this month should be quite good.

So, today was the last day of term at school and it was kind of just a day. I have been staying behind after school every single day every week because of revision or drama practice so that is fun. Its okay though, its good for my GCSEs. So, that was fun, walking home was tiring but good for me. Nothing interesting has happened today really. Only one April fool happened that I witnessed and that wasn't even to me or from me, so just a normal day really.

I am sorry that my first BEDA blog was kind of boring, it will get better I promise!

Today was awesome because: someone in my class got sent to the prep room for a big weight and a long stand.